We live in a very busy corner of a busy world. Busy is the watchword of our day. We wear it like a badge of honor sometimes. I hate to admit that I have played the "see how busy I am" game too many times with others. It feels productive and important and vital.
Because there are 4 boys involved with at least one activity each, we have been genuinely busy for most of the recent past. This was a typical spring schedule on our calendar.
We have struggled to get four boys to four games in the same day more times than I would like to recount. But what has all of this gotten me? Well--sick for one--stressed out beyond my capacity to cope. I've gotten better over the years, and I would not trade those days. We enjoyed watching our children play sports, and I certainly would not begrudge them those experiences.
Things have slowed now that the main culprit lives 3 hours away and the middle two have retired their cleats for the most part. But I find myself looking for ways to be busy, to fill my days, to be doing important things. I feel guilty when I'm not doing. When did our culture change from valuing "being" as well as "doing"? I'm not sure, but I think we've lost much in that evolution.
I have been studying the book of Genesis with a couple of my favorite college girls. God told Abram that He would make him into a great nation. Twenty-five years later he's not only 99 years old, but he's still childless. God and a couple of angels appeared to him while he was sitting under a tree, and Abram insisted that they stay for a meal. To prepare for this meal, he had Sarai grind grain while he chose a choice calf for the meal. There were no microwaves. This took time. God is not in a hurry, so how much of God am I missing by being so busy and always in a hurry? No wonder we don't hear from God. When do we have time to listen? When can God interrupt my day for a dinner that I would have to thaw out and start from scratch? I don't know, but if I continue to fill my calendar with my things then will God stop trying to focus my attention on His things?